Back to Basics

Hello Lovelies,

It’s been a long time since I’ve felt, like really felt the urge to write. “Urge” might be a bit of a funny word to use, but it’s all I’ve got at the moment so be prepared to see the word several times in this post (I apologise in advance).

I’ve been stopping and smelling the roses quite a lot and have been reflecting on things, but I haven’t really felt that urge to write. It was kind of getting me down a bit, despite being in gorgeous surroundings. It’s all part of a period of adjustment perhaps. After making such a big move and a more permanent one than when we decided to pack up and move to Budapest for a year, I suppose it’s only natural to feel a little lost for a while.

In the last couple of weeks though, I feel as though I am slowly finding myself again and hopefully with it, my urge to write again. I hate writing when it feels forced or doesn’t come naturally, sometimes I have to push through it, because it’s something that needs to be written in a particular time frame for one reason or another, but I never feel satisfied after a forced writing session.

Usually when my writing comes naturally, I feel satisfied afterwards, I feel like I truly accomplished something, even if I end up deleting it later because it was rubbish or didn’t make sense. That feeling after writing encompasses many emotions, you feel accomplished, re-centred, happy, content, so many things.

Often as writers, we lose our way, we feel as though somehow we have lost that urge to write and to create. The truth is though, as I am beginning to realise, is not that it is ever lost, it is always there, inside of us. However, sometimes it can become silenced by the pressures around us, the craziness of the world we live in, it can be stifled and pushed into the background, smothered by what life throws at us. But somewhere, sometimes way in there, way up the back, there is always that little voice, telling us to create, to write and to escape to a world of pure imagination of our own creation.

It’s taken me a while to realise this though, that my urge to write isn’t actually gone altogether, but has just been silenced and pushed back by a variety of factors. Now on the quest to turn up the volume on this, I’ve completely gone back to basics. My first step was reading a lot, my own work, the writing of others, multiple novels (some trashy and some surprisingly good).

“If you want to be a writer, you must do two things above all others: read a lot and write a lot.”

― Stephen King 

Now here comes the next step – actually writing again, but remember we’re going back to basics. So instead of jumping straight back into the last manuscript I was working on and trying to force it, I’m writing simpler things, a few sentences, ideas, poetry or even this blog post for instance. In a way I suppose you could say I am exercising my writing muscles!

When I first came up with the idea for this post and a title, I had imagined a very different post to the one that has taken shape here. I imagined it being about going back to basics of living due to being outside of a metropolitan area. However as you can see, it’s not really what this post is about. I let the writing and ideas flow on their own, I simply followed and saw where I ended up. This short journey reminded me of one of my favourite quotes:

“Writing is like driving at night in the fog. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.”

― E.L. Doctorow

 

So slowly, by exercising my writing muscles and going back to basics, that urge to write is starting to be heard again, louder and louder with each passing moment. Then things like this pop up in my Facebook memories:

anguished heart quote fb memories
Image and contained text copyright of The Writer Within – Katherine A. Kovács 2018

This is what reminds me of my passion for writing, the emotions conveyed through words and the ability to create characters and worlds through words. Things like this reignite my need to write and create.

I don’t think I’m quite ready to dive back into my manuscript, but soon I will be, I’m sure of it!

So until then, I will continue to read everything, write as much as possible and then someday soon I’ll be ready to continue József and Anna’s story in “An Anguished Heart”.

Enjoy,

KK

© Katherine A. Kovács and The Writer Within, (2013-2018). Unauthorised use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Katherine A. Kovács and The Writer Within with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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The Little Things

Hello Lovelies,

Even though 2015 has been a difficult one in our family, I’ve really learnt to appreciate the little things, those things that we usually take for granted or don’t stop to appreciate in the craziness of life. After everything that has happened and all the changes that have happened this year, it’s the little things that make me happy.

I am not American and have never celebrated Thanksgiving, but I do know that Thanksgiving is coming up this week. So I guess it’s the perfect time to acknowledge all the little things that I appreciate like the sunny autumn weather we have been having, when we can take the children out to the playground before it’s too cold.

When moving from a house you have lived in for 6 years to another country and an apartment that is apparently furnished, you also start to appreciate the little things like a dish rack. Yes, you did read it correctly, a dish rack. You see, in our own house we have had a dishwasher for the last 3 years, a great convenience for a family of 5. However, since we arrived in Budapest, both of the apartments did not have a dishwasher, which is completely understandable, but they also did not have a dish rack, so every time I did the dishes I would strategically be trying to balance all the plates and things on the draining board in a way that would hopefully allow them to (mostly) dry, but also so they didn’t fly off and onto the floor. On Friday however, my MIL came to visit and when she walked in the door, she was holding a brand new dish rack just for me! I stupidly couldn’t wait to do the dishes and try it out (the novelty wore off quickly though).

At this point, you might be saying something like, “first world problems” and rolling your eyes. I get that, I know it didn’t need the dish rack, there are people in this world who need a lot more things than a dish rack, people without running water, without homes, without peace living in war-torn countries. The point I’m trying to make is this: appreciate what you have, no matter how little or how much it is. Appreciate the little things that make your life a little easier. Take notice of the little things that make you happy, the things that bring your family together. Find something to be thankful for in each and every day no matter how bad of a day it’s been.

There are so many crazy and terrible things happening in this world, that it’s important to recognise and appreciate the little things that make us smile, make life easier or more convenient so we are able to spend more time with those we love and care about.

My message to you all is this, take a little time each day to appreciate the little things, even if it is just a dish rack or some sunny weather, because who knows how long we will be able to enjoy these things for. Live for today and appreciate the little things while you still have them and to remember those who don’t.

Today I am thankful that I am able to do some writing, that although the weather is cloudy and cold, my husband was able to take the youngest out the the playground whilst the other two (and myself of course) enjoy some quiet time. Those are the little things I am thankful for.

Live for today and appreciate the little things!

Enjoy,

KK

 

© Katherine A. Kovács and The Writer Within, (2013-2015). Unauthorised use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Katherine A. Kovács and The Writer Within with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.