Let Your Feelings Show

Hello Lovelies,

This past week has been a little crazy with three sick kiddies in the house to look after. While this has given me little time to sit down and write, it has given me some time to think about things.

Children do not hide their true feelings, even before they learn to speak you can tell how they feel by looking at their eyes. There are no fake or polite smiles and when they smile, the smile touches their eyes. If they are sad, cranky, scared or shy, they will let you know.

So what happens in the time between childhood and adulthood that causes us to smile that fake smile? Why do so many of us hide our true feelings?

Granted that there are many things that are acceptable for children to do and not adults. For example if my children to skip in the shopping centre, it’s considered cute by many. Yet, if I were to do exactly the same thing, people would consider me to be a very strange woman and urge their own children to keep their distance.

Is that why we hide our feelings? From fear of being thought of as weird or strange, from fear of repercussion? Imagine if there was an “open feeling day” where we could all express our true thoughts and feelings without fear of repercussion, I think it would be quite liberating.

Whilst it might not be appropriate to let all of our feelings show in every moment, in every setting, it is important to ensure that you show those you care for how you feel.

Let us take our example from children. Before children fully understand displays of affection they will smile at you. The smile touches their eyes telling you that you that because of you, their world is brighter. Then without thinking about it, you smile back- a true smile.

I think the same goes for the characters we create, let their true feelings show so that we may truly see who they are. Without understanding how the characters think and feel, our readers will not be able to connect properly with them.

So here’s to not hiding feelings! But when your boss asks you tomorrow morning why you’re 1 minute late, you might want to hide your true feelings if you want to keep your job.
Just a thought.
Have a lovely week,
KK

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True Colours

Hello Lovelies,

I’ve been doing a little bit of work on my novel, Heart’s Desire (this is just a working title) and changing the POV. I haven’t been doing it in the order I have written, when I sit down to have a look at it I simply read a section and consider how Rose would react in that situation, how she would feel and what she would say.
Today I was looking at the first chapter where Thomas is arguing with his grandmother, with him making it clear that Rose is part of the family whether she likes it or not.

I thought this argument provided an important insight into Agnes’ feelings about her grandson’s choice of wife and her feelings towards Rose, a woman who in her eyes is nothing more than a stain on the family name.

I began considering the feelings Rose would have if she overheard this conversation. I decided she would be aware of the animosity Agnes felt towards her, but Agnes’ words would still hurt. I considered that Rose would storm into the room and give Agnes a piece of her mind, but I decided that despite Rose’s “common” upbringing, storming into a room and yelling at an elderly woman is definitely not something that she would do. Rose may not have the breeding and social standing that is associated with the Heath family, but she is polite, kind and well educated due to her love of reading.

So instead I decided that Rose would overhear the argument, after hearing the unfamiliar and stern tone of Thomas’ voice and feeling guilty for eavesdropping, she can’t help but listen to the argument between Thomas and his Grandmother.

It is in this early moment that Rose begins to fully understand Agnes’ opinion of her, she also sees a side of Thomas that she has never really seen, one of anger and frustration as she witnesses the strain of the relationship between Thomas and his grandmother.

So here is a small excerpt that I have been working on, you may recognise the dialogue from earlier blog posts, but this time Rose’s POV is included.

Enjoy,
KK

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“Grandmother, she is my wife now, she is part of the family whether you like it or not. And she is coming with us. I don’t want to hear another word about it. This discussion is over.”

I don’t make a habit of eavesdropping, but the tone of his voice caught my attention and I took a tentative step towards the sitting room door, which was left ajar. I knew his relationship with his grandmother was strained, but I have never heard him speak to anyone in that manner. The stern tone was not to be argued with, but Agnes Mary Heath is not one to back down so easily and I knew the discussion was not over.

“Thomas William Heath, I am not finished. That girl may be your wife, but she is also a commoner, she is from a working class and she would be more comfortable with her own people. The girl must feel terribly out of sorts in the surroundings that we have grown accustomed to. It wasn’t fair on her, on you, bringing her here like you did. You should have let her go. She is just a girl.”

Her words stung, she had never made an effort to hide her dislike for me. She detested my common background and lack of social standing. Her main concern being the fallout on her own social standing with her grandson’s choice of wife being looked poorly upon by others who believe it wrong and uncouth to mix with commoners such as myself.
Our courtship and recent marriage was a much gossiped about topic in his grandmother’s social circles.
For a brief moment I thought about storming into the room and letting her know that I did not appreciate the way she spoke about me, but I am not the type of person who enjoys confrontation. Also, it would not help her opinion of me if I went storming into a room and yelled at an elderly woman, effectively incriminating myself for eavesdropping. Instead I stood quietly and listened.
“Rose is not a girl, she is a woman and I am a man. It was my choice to court her, it was my choice to ask for her hand and it was her choice to accept my proposal. The choices we made were for love, not for social standing, something which you would clearly not comprehend, dear grandmother.”
I slowly let out the breath that I was subconsciously holding, I knew he would be at my defence, but actually hearing him say the words was a relief, something that reinforced his love for me.
“Did you ever stop and think maybe it’s not love that your Dear Rose is after?”

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Flaws and All

Hello Lovelies,
This past week I’ve been doing a lot more reading than writing, but as Stephen King says, “If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have the time (or the tools) to write. Simple as that. ” Therefore I insist that the three books I’ve finished in a week were for research purposes and not for my own love of reading.
I am not ashamed to admit that the three books I finished were the first three parts of the Georgian Series by Sylvia Day. Whilst this series is considered Erotic Romance, Day’s writing style is levels above the mostly trashy romance fiction that is out there and in my opinion, definitely levels above the writing produced by E.L James, author of the Fifty Shades Trilogy. What I enjoy about Day’s writing is not the “naughty bits”, but her ability to tell the story of her characters with such feeling and attention to detail. Her stories are full of “cliff hanger” moments that draw you in and make you want to turn the page as quickly as possible to discover what happens next.
Something I also enjoy in Day’s writing style (and other contemporary fiction authors) is their ability to create characters that have “flaws”, making the character less than perfect and therefore more relatable for the reader. The main female character is not a woman of perfection, with the perfect appearance and personality; the female characters have curves, personality quirks and are more real than the leading ladies you see in many of the latest Hollywood flicks.
Exploring such “flaws” in your characters is something important to consider. Whether they are physical “flaws” or they are emotional or psychological, I think it is important to create characters that are less than perfect. Not only will this allow for more depth to be added in your story, but it will also allow for the reader to be able to relate to the characters you have created.
Real people have flaws and in the real world people fall in love, flaws and all. Therefore in order to create believable characters, I don’t think they can be perfect in every single way. This is something I am keeping in the front of my mind as I further explore my main characters. Not only am I exploring their personality, their likes and dislikes, I also need to explore their flaws and the ways in which these imperfections can add depth to the story they are telling me to write.
So remember, if we love flaws and all, we also need to write flaws and all.
Or something like that….
Enjoy your week,
KK

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Revise, Rewrite, Reread v2.0

Hello Lovelies,
This week I’ve been doing a little work on my rewrite for Heart’s Desire. If you remember a couple of weeks back, Gwen Stephens of The 4 A.M. Writer prompted me to realise that yet another WIP was written from the wrong POV (if you haven’t read this post and would like to catch up you can read it here). Since this realisation I must admit I have been a little afraid to even look at it as the thought of starting again after investing so much time, effort and research into it, quite frankly scared the sh** out of me!
I decided to take a look at it on Wednesday night, I was still on a high from receiving an amazing grade in one of those assignments I was avoiding and the timing seemed right. If I could write a research report that was completely “half-arsed” and get a great grade, then I could surely rewrite a story from a different POV, where I already knew the plot, setting and characters so well. Should be no problem, right?

As I sat down and began to brainstorm in one of my new notebooks, I began to realise how naïve it was to think that way. At no point did I assume that changing the POV would be an easy task, but I did think that knowing my characters, plot and setting so well would work in my favour and make the monstrous task ahead that little bit easier. While I wasn’t completely wrong, it wasn’t as easy as I convinced myself it would be. As I began to scratch out some of the details and some dialogue, I realised that while I know my character of Thomas so very well, have only scratched the surface with getting to know Rose.

After brainstorming and digging a little deeper into Rose’s personality I am feeling quite positive at where she is taking me. Even though I started the story of Thomas and Rose from the wrong POV, I do not regret it for a minute as it allowed me to deeply explore the character of Thomas. I know how he sees himself, how he thinks and how he feels (the briefs moments when he allows me this insight). From this understanding I am now enjoying exploring Thomas through Rose’s eyes. Rose knows and understands things about Thomas that he doesn’t even know about himself.

While I have so much more to explore about Rose before I can really begin to rewrite Heart’s Desire, I am now actually looking forward to it. Rose understands the darkness of Thomas’ past, she understands before he actually tells her, now I look forward to discovering exactly why she understands. Perhaps it is something in her own past that allows her to understand the darkness she sees in his eyes, I’m not entirely sure yet but I look forward to getting to know and understand Rose, in the same way I understand Thomas.

I know that changing the POV and rewriting is going to take a while and I’m OK with that now. I think I have come to a point where I am no longer scared of this change and I look forward to getting to deeply know and understand my characters and in the long term I’m looking forward to telling Thomas and Rose’s story… the right way!

Now as a bonus for reading so much of my rambling, here is a little glimpse of Rose and just how well she knows Thomas, sometimes better than he knows himself.
Enjoy,
KK

His past is full of darkness, despair and heartache. I know this because I’ve seen it in his eyes. Every time he awakens from a dreadful dream, when his thoughts wander to the time before we met or when the icy words of his grandmother cut him to the core, that’s when I see it. But when those eyes look at me, the darkness drifts behind and all I see is hope, love and lust.

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